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Tuesday, February 19, 2019

Addicts [updated]

tricked into seeing control
over your body,
your past,
your present,
your future

just when you need it so 
desperately, heart aching for relief
it appears
whatever it is, be careful

it will be tempting,
oh, the pain of saying no

it will feel big, as vital as water
by big,
I mean, like everything
it will fix all of your problems
I mean, it won't and
you know that, but it feels that way

once and you're hooked
once and you know,
oh, once you know
you become an escape artist

you'll repeat it
no matter what lies it will take
no matter what it takes
the hole you are digging, 
your own grave, gets deeper

again again and again

drop it?
but how to
refill that hole?
my throat is dry, I need it
like water

that missing piece
is the only reason for all of your problems
not skipping meds, not skipping breakfast
not ignoring responsibilities, not ignoring friends
no, the problem is
whatever is keeping us from it
that is making
our whole world
crumble around us
when we are already
so far underground

looked upon as weak,
we are judged by those who cannot know us
we are more
than our addiction

perhaps a painter or skier 
or mediocre at everything tried

try.

that is all you can do
try and try again