wanting the truth

i want
the truth, i claim
that it can't hurt

ignoring the truth
doesn't make it
go away, i say

fear of
losing control
fuels this
(something that is
already a wildfire)

i'm afraid
that i will wish
for ignorance
in a moment of
weakness

i'm terrified

i will regret
knowing a truth

i claim i want
the truth no matter what, but
i'm afraid.

i'm terrified.